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Discovered by J.P. Barnaby

October 17, 2011

Will Jamie’s self-hatred destroy his reunion with Brian? Discovered by J.P. Barnaby, available from Dreamspinner Press.

Little Boy Lost Book 4

Little Boy Lost is the story of Jamie Mayfield, a golden-haired fallen angel. Dumped into a gay rehab center and shunned by his parents, the once-adored son of small-minded, small town people has had to find his own way in life.

Jamie is astonished and dismayed when Brian McAllister, the boy he knows is the other half of his soul, explodes back into his precarious life. In the nearly two years they’ve been apart, not a day has gone by that Jamie hasn’t thought of Brian, no matter how hard surviving has been. How can Jamie protect Brian from the pain and brutalization in his life when he can’t even protect himself? Brian and Jamie will put every bit of themselves into saving each other, but Steven O’Dell isn’t the only obstacle keeping the boys apart. Jamie’s own self-hatred may prove to be their undoing.

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Genre: Contemporary
Length: Novel

Mastering the Ride by J.P. Barnaby

September 14, 2011

Will Josh find what he’s looking for in Montana with his new Master, Wade Mallory? Mastering the Ride by J.P. Barnaby, available from Dreamspinner Press.

Josh, a young gay submissive with a strong desire to serve, is searching for the Master of his dreams. After being released by yet another Dom, he takes the advice of his trainer and leaves Chicago to accept the invitation of a Montana rancher—a real, live, modern-day cowboy. With his new Master, Wade Mallory, Josh may just find what he’s looking for… and more.

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Genre: BDSM/Kink, Western
Length: Novella

Papi by J.P. Barnaby

August 10, 2011

Papi by J.P. Barnaby

Kyle Lang just got out of a marriage that lasted too goddamned long. He knew when he married her that he shouldn’t have. For the last few years, he’s been haunted by daydreams of the perfect feel of another man’s skin. The problem is, the bar scene isn’t working so well for him. When Kyle picks up Jesse, an eighteen-year-old illegal who turns tricks for cash, he finally finds something to scratch that desperate itch. For Jesse, who is only gay-for-pay to support his sister, it’s the first time he’s ever been aroused by another man’s touch. The consequences will change his whole world.

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Genre: Contemporary, Bittersweet Dreams
Length: Short story

Little Boy Lost: Vanished by J.P. Barnaby

July 18, 2011

Can Brian hold on to one dream in the face of a new one? Little Boy Lost: Vanished by J.P. Barnaby, available from Dreamspinner Press.

Brian McAllister’s story continues in San Diego, where he finds so much more than he ever expected: acceptance, friends, encouragement, and an entire world of sexual adventure he’d never dared to imagine back in his small Alabama town. He continues to search for one lost boy in a sea of humanity but slowly begins to realize that maybe dreams really don’t come true.

Encouraged by new friends Mike and Emilio, Brian struggles to find work and keep his spirits up while his hope of finding Jamie starts to falter. But when life comes crashing down, he’s desperate to keep his new life. Can Brian do the unthinkable to remain in California when his money runs out? When Brian meets a beaten and bruised boy no one seems willing to help, he knows that walking away is no longer an option.

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Genre: Contemporary
Length: Novel

Little Boy Lost: Abandoned

May 16, 2011

Can Brian survive to find Jamie or will he turn to Adam in desperation? Abandoned (m/m) by J.P. Barnaby, available from Dreamspinner Press.

Jamie is gone.

Brian’s secret has been revealed.

Brian McAllister’s story continues as he tries to cope with the loss of his best friend and soul mate amid the alienation and ridicule of his classmates. When hatred turns to violence, Brian narrows his focus to two goals: surviving and finding Jamie. Along the way he meets Adam, whose life has also been shattered by violence and cruelty. Can Adam fill the hole in Brian’s life left by Jamie’s absence? The answer will change everything.

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Genre: Contemporary
Length: Novel

Little Boy Lost: Enlightened by J.P. Barnaby

March 14, 2011

Can Brian and Jamie hold on to their love in a town that will never accept them? Little Boy Lost: Enlightened (m/m) by J.P. Barnaby, available from Dreampsinner Press

Little Boy Lost Book One

Little Boy Lost is the story of Brian McAllister, the boy next door. Brian goes to school, does his homework, and helps his foster parents around the house. Brian also has a secret: he is in love with his best friend, Jamie. But in Crayford, Alabama, being in love with another boy is the worst kind of sin.

Brian and Jamie will discover just how deep their emotional bond runs, and at what cost. What will they do if their secret is discovered? From fumbling through their first sexual experiences to hiding all aspects of their relationship from everyone in their lives, Brian and Jamie battle for the one thing that is truly theirs—love.

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Genre: Contemporary
Length: Novel

A limited number of signed copies are available on a first come, first served basis!

Enlightened Release Party: Giveaway

March 14, 2011

Welcome to the Little Boy Lost: Enlightened Release Party!

Two ways to enter and win your very own eBook copy of the exciting first novel in this epic series:

1. Twitter – Simply copy this tweet and enter as many times as you wish:

Enter me to win the new release Little Boy Lost: Enlightened by J. P. Barnaby http://tinyurl.com/4s4peu3

2. Don’t have Twitter? Send an email to jp@jpbarnaby.com:

Subject: Enlightened Giveaway

WINNERS WILL BE CHOSEN AT 7pm CST

CONGRATULATIONS TO JASON – WINNER OF THE FREE EBOOK.

Little Boy Lost, Book One

Little Boy Lost is the story of Brian McAllister, the boy next door.

Brian goes to school, does his homework, and helps his foster parents around the house. Brian also has a secret: he is in love with his best friend, Jamie. But in Crayford, Alabama, being in love with another boy is the worst kind of sin.

Brian and Jamie will discover just how deep their emotional bond runs, and at what cost. What will they do if their secret is discovered? From fumbling through their first sexual experiences to hiding all aspects of their relationship from everyone in their lives, Brian and Jamie battle for the one thing that is truly theirs—love.

Enlightened Release Party: Brian and Jamie interview J. P. Barnaby

March 14, 2011

[Brian McAllister]: Hello, my name is Brian and I’m here with my boyfriend Jamie <sweet smile at the mention of “boyfriend”>  and the author who so graciously agreed to tell our story.  Say hi, Jamie.

[Jamie Mayfield]: Hello <small wave and indulgent smile at Brian>

[Brian]: J. P., our series of books are your first with a traditional publisher, before that you were self-published. Can you tell us a little about yourself?

[J. P. Barnaby]: Hi Brian. Hi Jamie. You know, recently, we went through Enlightened and edited it for the re-release by Dreamspinner Press.  It was wonderful to meet you guys all over again.

[Brian]: Wait, you edited it? You didn’t cut out anything important did you?!?

[JP]: Nothing was cut from the original version, don’t worry. In fact, like we talked about a few months ago, the book is now 20% longer (about 10,000 words). Three scenes were  added along with bits and pieces through the novel.

[Brian]: That awesome! I’m sorry, I interrupted you.

[JP]: That’s okay, there’s really not much more to me than you can read in my bio. I read a lot, play video games and keep the writing precariously balanced with my career as a software developer.

[Brian]: Have you written a lot of books?

[JP]: In addition to the Little Boy Lost series, I’ve written two novels, a novella, and two short stories that are all published (except the novella which will be out with Dreamspinner in the fall) and maybe a dozen stories that aren’t. These are being loaded onto my website [http://www.jpbarnaby.com] as free fiction as they are edited.

[Jamie]: Where is the best place to find your stories if someone were looking?

[JP]: They could find everything under my author biography at Amazon.com  or on my author profile at Goodreads.com no matter where the story has been published.

[Brian]:  Okay, okay, enough about you… Let’s talk about us. <laugh> Where did the idea for Little Boy Lost come from?

[JP]: It came from you, and from Jamie. At first, you started just giving me bits and pieces, glimpses into your story. Then, we started to sit down and really talk – after that, it just flowed.

[Jamie]: Tell us a little about the first book. That time was so turbulent for us. It was hard, but at the same time…wonderful.

[JP]: For me, Enlightened is a beautiful story – but then I’m biased because I’ve come to care for you guys so much. We’ve spent a lot of time together over the last year.  The story is about love and loss, faith and fear, acceptance and persecution. It’s about two teenage boys who find solace and love in each other amid the hatred and bigotry of their small town.

[Brian]: Did you find our story difficult to write?

[JP]: In some ways, I did, but in other ways it was easy. The love and happiness were easy to write while the pain and sorrow broke my heart for you.

[Jamie]: Enlightened was originally released in March 2010, exactly one year ago. People have been waiting for the second book for a pretty long time. Is there an expected release date for Abandoned?

[JP]: Abandoned will be released by Dreamspinner Press on May 16, 2011. After that, the books are scheduled to be released every 2-3 months. One of the great things about working with Dreamspinner is that they have an established process. Each book goes through the same process on a clearly defined schedule.

[Brian]: Okay, can we get a peek at Enlightened?

[JP]: Sure. This is one of my favorite scenes in the book – your first kiss.

<Jamie reaches over to take Brian’s hand and smiles>

From Little Boy Lost: Enlightened

As I watched, his expression softened, the fear and the shock replaced by a different emotion. He kept his eyes on mine and leaned forward ever so slightly and then hesitated. If I hadn’t been watching him so intently, I wouldn’t have noticed that he had moved at all. When I didn’t punch, scream, or even back away, he leaned in a little closer—an unspoken question in his eyes.

Do you feel it too? 

I felt his warm breath on my face; he was so damn close. My heart rate accelerated wildly, and I could hear the blood pounding in my ears. He whispered, almost too softly for me to hear.

“Please… please don’t hate me.”

Then, in the lightest of touches, soft but unyielding, his lips pressed against mine. My eyes closed, and I felt a rush of emotion, sexual tension, something, building within me. As his mouth molded over the contours of my lips, we reveled in the untamed surge of passion that flowed between us. The kiss was delicate, sweet, and lingered just long enough to make me want more. I had waited my whole life for my first kiss, and while it wasn’t exactly how I’d pictured it in my youth, it was perfect. His lips were warm and smooth as they moved against mine, causing a swelling tension in my stomach. The rain continued to pound the tree house roof as my arms nearly ached to go around him. I was scared to break the spell that had enveloped us. It was everything that a boy’s first kiss should be.

Only it wasn’t with a girl.

[Jamie]: God, I was so scared. I really thought you were going to hit me.

[Brian]: Have I ever hit you? <strokes Jamie’s face gently>

[Jamie]: No, no you haven’t…  Okay, JP – if I promise not to tell anyone, including Brian – will you tell me if you gave us a happy ending? <Brian smacks Jamie’s arm>

[Brian]: There, now I hit you.  She’s not going to tell us that!  Uhmmm… Are you?

[JP]: Nope. We have a pretty long and dangerous road ahead of us, and I want everyone to enjoy the ride.

Enlightened Release Party: Computer Wallpaper

March 14, 2011

 

Welcome to the Little Boy Lost: Enlightened release party!

As a special gift to thank you for attending, please click the image for the desktop wallpaper to enlarge it for use as a wallpaper for your computer. Stay tuned for more posts including a special interview of the author by Brian and Jamie.

Remember that the first 20 paperbacks sold by Dreamspinner Press have been signed!

Instructions for making an image your wallpaper:
PC: Right click on the enlarged image and select Set as Background
Mac: http://www.dummies.com/how-to/content/how-to-use-a-photo-as-wallpaper-on-a-mac.html

Short Story: My Brother Benjamin by J. P. Barnaby

March 13, 2011

The hammer shook in Jamie Duncan’s tiny hand. The job of putting it back on his father’s garage workbench was forestalled by confusion and fear. Eight years old, he did not have the frame of reference needed to process what he was seeing. The frayed and battered tennis shoes, the ones his brother Benjamin wore every single day, were suspended about a yard from Jamie’s frightened face. Surprised amusement had surrendered quickly to shocked disbelief as Jamie noticed the white socks still peeking out from below his brother’s jeans, just above those beloved red canvas shoes.

A strangled scream, drowned in his panic, erupted from him as nothing but a strained whimper. Reaching out, Jamie touched his big brother’s leg, alien in its stillness. The younger boy could not remember a time when Benjamin had ever been so still; it was almost worse than the silence. Staggering back several feet, Jamie continued to stare at the cherry colored sneakers, terrified to look any higher and see his brother’s face.

“Benji?” Jamie whispered, his voice small and scared, it was almost as if he were trying to wake his big brother, like he did after he’d had a bad dream. In his heart, the little boy wished as hard as he could. In fact, some may have even called it prayer. He wished that Benjamin would wake up and tell him that there was nothing to be afraid of.

“Benji, I’m scared.” He thought about how his brother would sigh and pretend to be mad when Jamie woke him in the middle of the night. In the end, the older boy would always pull his blankets back, inviting his little brother in so he could protect Jamie from the monsters.

Jamie looked up to see his brother’s staring, unseeing eyes and he knew that the monsters had finally gotten Benji.

Standing as high as his little feet would allow, Jamie stretched up and pulled at his big brother’s T-shirt. He wanted to make Benji mad, to make him yell – because even yelling would be better than the silent blank stare. A crumpled piece of notebook paper fell from his brother’s slackened grip and dropped to the grungy floor. Not taking his eyes from those red sneakers, Jamie bent and scooped up the note.

Slowly, he sounded out each word like Mrs. Martin had taught him. Reading the words around the damp smudges, he thought maybe his brother had been writing in the rain.

Their hatred burns like fire, scorching, consuming

The very air blisters my lungs

I can’t breathe

Acrid smoke blocks out the sun

I can’t see

Roaring Flames engulf my soul

Everything lies in ruins

There is nothing left

 

I’m just so tired. I can’t fight anymore.

They tell me I’m going to go to hell for being a fag and maybe I am, but it can’t be any worse than school.

I’m so sorry. Please tell Jamie that I’m sorry. I’m supposed to be there to protect him but how can I do that when I can’t even protect myself?

 

Clutching the note against his chest, Jamie sank to the floor and pulled his knees up trying to protect himself from the weight of his brother’s confession. He knew what it was like for kids at school to be mean. Joey Thompson had pushed him off the bars at recess a few days ago. In his child’s view, he couldn’t understand why Benji didn’t tell a teacher. They had to have teachers in the tenth grade, just like they did in third.

The reality of his brother’s death became more real for Jamie as he held the note in his hand. He wanted to run, he wanted to tell someone, but he just couldn’t leave his brother alone. In that note Benji sounded so scared. Benji would never have left Jamie if he were feeling scared.

Jamie continued to sit on the cold concrete floor below his brother’s body and waited for someone to come.

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Copyright (c) 2011 – J. P. Barnaby – http://www.jpbarnaby.com